lately...

lately i havent been doing a lot, cleaning, dancing, lots of music. always showing love to others and giving advice, mostly to people on facebook. i collect what some call worry stones, and i love them. but the irish in me calls them blarney stones :) it doesnt mean i use them to lie, they help me to focus. when i worship i hold one tightly and i make wishes on them for others. like friends, like wishing on a star :)

so i wanted more of them. i finally found 3 bags of them, one bag is black with other colours running through it and the other 2 bags are assorted colours. the sizes vary and i love that theyre not all smooth like worry stones. theyre my focal point. im seriously a.d.h.d and need something to slow my thoughts so that i can keep up with them.

i see them as a gift from the all. ive always collected rocks, since i was a child, and i feel so many things in them :) i spend hours playing with one, til it absorbs part of me, and thats when it becomes mine. today's is rust coloured brown with streaks of white in it :)

maybe this is boring, but we all need something to hold onto when life feels so crazy, and i never lose my peace or serenity. i thank my faith for that

when i left home i had to choose a path

i chose the path least taken, to be the opposite of so many around me, to be loving and protective of my fellow man. to look for the good in everyone. and i keep doing that, every day of my life.

you know how in citizen kane his last word was 'rosebud'? my last will be 2 words, or more. to him, thank you, to those around me, i love you xo

heh, i talk to someone i love on the phone a lot and she never says 'i love you'. i always say it before hanging up. then the other day i said i love you to her, as i always do. and she started to say 'okay, bye'. but i stopped her, i said wait, everytime i say goobye to you i say i love you to you, because i do. i want you to start saying it back. she did and has been since :)

all it takes is to say the words, and sometimes a hint that maybe someone should return them. i know its made me very happy :)

so if i have a pecadillo for rocks, forgive me, but i will never ask forgiveness for loving and protecting others xo

the wind

new beginnings. whispered in silence and heard only by the wind. i can taste the wind as it takes away my breath and the words from my mouth and it is truly beautiful

this is my time for a new beginning, its purpose known only to the wind

have you ever heard the song of the trees and grass at sunrise, when there is a grayblue to the sky and the trees and the grass move in the breeze, the birds sing and the squirrels chatter along with the song of the trees, grass and birds?

the air is so moist, that you can taste it, and its sweet upon your tongue. i have

have you ever danced like a dervish in the pale moonlight, i have many times. and did just as i made myself a cup of coffee

ive grown to feel so many things around me, chaos, turbulence. i try to ignore those things, they are not good

it is said give and you will recieve. this is true :)
i and many of my friends give of our love and protection to those we meet online now

to protect each other and above all, i protect the innocents, as do so many believers

through this sharing does the cherry tree send out seeds among the disheartened masses, through our love the love of the all, whichever name you choose to call whom you worship, our higher being. i choose to call this being 'all' now. through our love and commitment to loving and protecting those in danger, we so feed the cherry tree of life, love, and life :)

and we share our love of 'the all', in these acts :*

of all of the gifts that one can recieve from the all, none even comes close to the gift of love, which many of us have boundless amounts.
i thank the all for this gift, and i will spread the seed of his love to all whom i can touch in any way :)

there are so many ways in which we can use this blessing. i used to council people online who would seek me out, i would know when they were contemplating ending their lives. i would stay up all night chatting with them, so they ended up fine, and far too tired to do such a thing :D
i do these things online and offline

selah, oh all, i thank you for the blessing that you have given to me, and to so many others :)

rejoice! for it is real and true and most wondrous :*

someone told me that i was too kind, i helped them.

but one can never be too kind when another is in need of help. we all know that :)

its part of what most of us believe, and its certainly part of what i believe. my love is pure and for all people in need.

i would and have many times given everything i had to someone who was in need, as many do.

think about the cherrry tree, each time we help another in need its nurtured.

the love in my heart is almost boundless. as it should be in all hearts. and i know many people here in whom it is :)

this doesnt follow my usual sort of tale. a true sage gives all that they can out of their boundless love. we should do that in order to find the path to peace and serenity. to all things :)

for enlightenment lies within the all x

the time in which we live

this isnt mine but i found it looking through my things and it has a lot to say about us as individuals, and the age we live in :*

The Paradox of Our Age By Dr. Bob Moorehead

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers; wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense; more knowledge, but less judgment; more experts, yet more problems; more medicine, but less wellness. We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things. We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less. These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion; big men and small character; steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce; fancier houses but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete. Remember, spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever. Remember to say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side. Remember to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent. Remember to say "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you. Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again. Give time to love, give time to speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
And always remember:
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.


i loved this so much i kept it, and wanted to share it with you :)

free will and the path least taken

people are born with free will.

we all choose what we will be. im so happy and blessed to have chosen my path.one cannot fathom the evil that resides within others.

as i mentioned, all people have free will. some choose an evil nature.this nature seems to hold onto much of our society today, not just in north america.

all around the world people make choices.so many, sadly, make the wrong one.but i have hope, like the cherry tree i spoke about in the tale before this one.

it's up to the good people to nurture the tree and spread the seeds. people will always have free willi'm just hoping that the seeds spread :)

the beginnings of my journey

i had a christian upbringing, but the hypocrisy within all christian churches eventually drove me away.

i thought i was an atheist, but actually im an agnostic. i know a higher power exists, but i dont know where or who, so i call that power god.

i feel that all of the prophets from most religions, and i only exclude the silly ones, speak truth. the bahai's believe that all of the prophets are suns of god, reflections of him. i was a bahai and i believe that too.

this belief is why i study the religions of the world, i've definitely been around the world in my learning. the bahai's began in ancient persia and were being slaughtered for their beliefs. many escaped to canada, thankfully. they live lives of peace :)

we each need to find the unknown and know it. see it, live it.i have hope. but that depends on people, all of us.

think of it like a mythical cherry tree, withered and dry, bearing no fruit. and for each one of us who learns to care, to love it grows stronger. it will begin to flower and bear fruit :)

we must plant the seeds of the tree in others through our love. a random act of kindness, pay it forward, whatever you want to call it.

and thats how its up to us, to spread the seeds of love and caring

ive discovered that god lives everywhere, turn over a stone, i'm there, a log, you'll find me, look into yourself and i'm there too. i do not dwell in buildings made of stone, i dwell within you and all of the world outside of you. i found this in a gnostic gospel, from my love of nature, and my sense of self. :*

i reread the tao te ching by lao tsu this morning. i had a sleepless night.

here are some of the things i wanted to mention to you from it:

The virtue of the natural way is that all things are born of it; it nourishes and comforts them; develops, shelters and cares for them, protecting them from harm.By acting with no thought of self-advancement, but with self-restraint, it is possible to lead, and genuinely care for others. This happens by acting virtuously, and leaving nothing to be done.

A great country remains receptive and still, as does a rich and fertile land.The gentle overcomes the strong with stillness and receptivity. The source of all things is in the Tao. It is a treasure for the good, and a refuge for all in need.

Whilst praise can buy titles, good deeds gain respect.Act without contriving; work naturally, and taste the tasteless; magnify the small; increase the few, and reward bitterness with care. Seek the simple in the complex, and achieve greatness in small things. It is the way of nature that even difficult things are done with ease, and great acts made up of smaller deeds.

The sage achieves greatness by small deeds multiplied.Those who follow the natural way are different from others in three respects. They have great mercy and economy, and the courage not to compete. From mercy there comes courage; from economy, generosity; and from humility, willingness to lead from behind.

It is the way of sickness to shun the merciful, and to acclaim only heroic deeds, to abandon economy, and to be selfish.

karma

i dont know if you believe in karma, but i do. its good to know mine is where it belongs

lets be biblical. do unto others as you would have them do to you.karma in a nutshell

i believe that all beliefs, except a couple, have good things in what they say. you just have to read themone of my favourites is the tao te ching by lao tzu
you can find anything online :) so i study to learn how to be a better person. and in that have i found what i have. peace, love and serenity. those things which i seek to nurture every day of my life

memories

when i was little my great grandma died. i remember her so well. and then one of my sisters too. i wake up from dreams knowing that my sister and i have been together in my dream, i can hear her voice, smell her like soft lavender, feel the softness of her hand. there is no sadness in death, but new life.from both of them did i learn great love. and continue to in my memories of them.we all have memories of ones who were of great love. hang onto those memories, find peace in them. and you will grow. in love, in peace, and in serenity :)

peace

what is peace? i believe that its in knowing who you are inside, and doing the best you can with who you are. i have the gifts of love and empathy. in those do i find peaceand with peace comes serenity. storms come and go in life, but there is always serenity between them. and in that serenity, we find peace :)

how this all started, me speaking my thoughts publically

i tried to help a girl. i did. and now those i helped are betraying me so i cry. but why do i cry? because it hurts me? because i feel sad for them? or maybe bothbut in sleep tears pass on to peace

i decided to start blogging the things i've been teaching to others for a while

i was raised a christian, but lost faith in the church. for a while i called myself an atheist, then and agnostic.



ive studied all major religions around the world, and have, based on these studies and the study of the true beginnings of all major religions, pantheism, created my own spiritual path and beliefs.



my intent is to share with you what i have shared with others :)